invoking gaia: part one

"Hold onto that still point inside", she whispered.

The center. The beginning. The ending. The serenity. The truth. The wildness. The sacred.

The hemlocks stood sentinel as she stepped up beside me. Looking down, I saw that she had her hand open. I breathed in. Pause. I breathed out and grasped it. She squeezed. 

I turned to look behind me. Diana stood smiling. "The huntress is always within. It is where you began." Under my other hand, I felt the soft fur of my totem. She, too, was waiting in anticipation.

Finally turning my gaze, Gaia's shining eyes were lit with happiness. Such beauty and serenity, but so full of wildness and unknown. A benevolent queen. "Time to tap into the fierce energy of the earth and find the wild center." The wild center? "One can be sophisticated and wild.", she winked. "The next cycle will be a journey of forgiveness - self, others, and not just for this lifetime. Follow the path of the Grandmothers. Follow the path of the Earth. Follow the path of Healing."

Stepping forward, colors shifted from white to blue. Maiden to Mother. Huntress to Queen. 

the authentic center

What is my authentic center? 

Authentic = (adj.) true to one's own personality, spirit, or character.

My authentic center = I am a walking contradiction. 

I am a scientist who believes in magic. 

I am a complex being searching for simplicity. 

I am a gypsy soul bound to the earth's energy. 

The description of my personality type, the INTJ, states that "A paradox to most observers, INTJs are able to live by glaring contradictions that nonetheless make perfect sense – at least from a purely rational perspective. For example, INTJs are simultaneously the most starry-eyed idealists and the bitterest of cynics, a seemingly impossible conflict. But this is because INTJ types tend to believe that with effort, intelligence and consideration, nothing is impossible, while at the same time they believe that people are too lazy, short-sighted or self-serving to actually achieve those fantastic results."